Spouse is basically an athiest with an islamic background
Not sure how to proceed

I was saved 3 yrs ago and all i ever think about is God and questions about God and the Bible
Really into prophecy and end times

Cannot really go to church right now amd am not really able to ever talk about God
My spouse has no interest in the topics

......
I feel very frustrated in life.
Should i keep it to myself or keep trying to share

I am also frustrated with cultural witnessing= trying to show a person you are a follower of God over a lifetime without ever telling them the gospel like i have seen in Christianity over my lifetime
Honestly, the pegans are always nicer than any christian i have ever met and the Bible says faith is by hearing the word and salvation by faith

Jesus says you will know them by their love so i am not advocating a type of fundamental unkind preaching but i also feel like it is insanely important to bring up biblical doctrine whenever possible

I feel like my sins keep me from saying anything
I hate who i am
I hate that i have bad days and lash out
I hate that I cannot love like Jesus

But i also think about Jesus constantly and feel like talking about him always

Help
Anyone else have better ideas of aharing



I deleted my fb because i feel like it is an addiction but i also tried to see it as a way to witness
Just learned yesterday that people were offended by it so i deleted it .......

No support and frustrated